Redeemed by Jesus Christ, my savior, I am not complete by any means except through Him alone.  I have been blessed to walk this journey of life with my husband since 1999.  The Lord has made us stewards of many blessings, but the most important being our six children.  

 

I miscarried for the first time in 2008.  I was 7 and 1/2 weeks pregnant when I began loosing baby Joy.  Until I had experienced miscarriage I had no idea how difficult it was to go through one.  I knew that a baby was gone and that it was really sad, but I honestly thought that early miscarriage would be an easier loss to suffer through than other kinds of loss.  While there might be some truth there, I now understand that loss...  really is... loss!  I more recently had a chemical pregnancy in September of 2014, got pregnant again the next month and began miscarrying baby Pearl at 10 weeks on December 7th of 2014.  I ended up having a D&C on December 11th.  This loss was extremely difficult and a lot of that difficulty was because of circumstances not directly involved with the miscarriage itself.  

 

Pregnancy loss at any stage is hard and I find it rather frustrating that the topic of miscarriage is still so "taboo" in our culture when many other things people used to never discuss in public are SO open for discussion now.  Who will speak for the validity and the preciousness of the tiniest ones that leave us so soon in this life?

 

Everyone grieves differently but writing is something that helps me and gives an avenue for Christ's healing and strength.  For me, personally, silencing my grief does not help me at all.  I truly hope that in sharing my journey that I help others identify with miscarrying mothers, that grieving mothers will find a resource of comfort through Christ, and if He should will it, through words He may give me to share.  Mostly, sweet mamas, I want you to know that you are not alone.  We are going to seek out the pearl of joy on this journey together!

 

~In His Peace,

       Shelly